everything was a lie

when you ask me "why"

lately, he's been asking me -why-

but i couldn't really give him an answer

in fact, i can't tell him why

neither can i tell any of them

coz i don't wanna ruin the only friendship we have

or maybe what's left for us

but one thing i can tell him for sure

it is definitely not because he's there

maybe someday he'll know or find out the real reason behind

or maybe he never will

i don't know

all i know now is that i can't tell him -why-

at least not at this point of time

i can only keep it to myself

it's not gonna be easy

what i need to do now is to keep the feeling deep down inside

1st post in 2010

Twenty-ten is already here.

Time really flies i guess.

I've had ups and downs in 2009.

For instance,

one of the most blissful things has happened to me from the very beginning of 2009,

however it didn't go well no matter how hard i wanted it to be a happy ending.

Also, i wanna say sorry to my parents as i have let them down twice in 2009.

Yet they still love me as always.

I enjoyed my every single moment in 2009

But also regretted certain things that i've said and done.

If only i could turn back time and undo my mistakes...

Nonetheless, without these ups and downs,

I wouldn't have become the person that I am now.

So I wanna thank all my family and friends:

Thank you Daddy Mommy & Bros - for your undying love and support no matter how bad shaped i am.

Thank you All my Beloved Friends (you know who you are) - thanks for being there for me when i needed someone especially during my hard times. Thanks for all the supports. And hugs!!

Thank You (i don't know if you'd be reading this, but thanks!) - you brought me one of the happiest moments in my life which i will never forget. Coz memories are the only things that left for me now. I hope you don't mind me keeping those memories. (but i guess very soon i will no longer be allowed to reminisce given your new status.) Though i have given in my everything, i still think that they are worth it.


Anyways, once again,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Millie & Joey @ Tom, Dick & Harry's

I was rather emotional on Monday.

I didn't really know how to react to the situation.

Tried asking a few friends out for dinner but most couldn't make it.

So in the end, my beloved cousin teman me instead.

We went to Tom, Dick & Harry's for dinner and drinks.

Rudy and Adam C from HitzFM were there too.

Omg that Rudy lost so much weight!! Lol.

Anyways, I felt a lil' better after spilling out my feelings.

Then we also talked about other stuff.

All in all, it was a great night out with her.

Thanks Millie!! =)

A few pictures of the night:

button mushroom & pork platter

breaded chicken chop

my funny cousin

Millicent !!

Me

the beer we had

deep fried mars & snickers bars with vanilla ice-cream

* the two bars there looked like something else hahaha *

That's all for now.

Gotta go catch some sleep soon.

CHEERS !! =)

You.. You.. You.. You.. You..

I Hate YES

I woke up pretty early today. 10am. It was kinda early for a sunday. Lol. Went to Jaya Palace for lunch brunch with family members to celebrate grandma's birthday. All of us were so ambitious we practically ordered almost everything from the dim sum menu. In the end, we ended up forcing each other to eat! Haha.

After that, I went MV with my bro. I was supposed to get one thing then head home to rest up after that tiring friday. (went hiking in the effing early morning, then a long friday night out!)  Instead, i ended up shopping AGAIN!! And its not a small amount! I basically spent my one whole month of salary in just 3 hours time!! OMFG!!

I'm outta control. Lol. I hate YES (Year End Sale)!! I'm so effing broke now!! Can CNY come early next year please??... Haha.

Anyways, christmas and new year are just around the corner. Merry Xmas & Happy New Year Everyone!!

CHEERS!!