you've got it already..

两个人一起是为了快乐，分手是为了减轻痛苦，

你无法再令我快乐，我也唯有离开，

我离开的时候，也很痛苦，

只是，你肯定比我痛苦，

因为我首先说再见，

首先追求快乐的是我。。。。   ~ 张小娴



glad that you've found what you have always wanted...
glad that you're so happy now...

crap!

unbelievable!

i can't believe i'm actually hoping for the impossible, the unreachable, the unlikely!!

what is wrong with me?!!

and i thought i have talked myself into this...

crap!!

i'm so screwed...

i have been trying hard... real hard.. believe me..

but it is always easier said than done..

XX

the parcel has been long arrived.

i'm still wondering if i should ask him about it. would it be weird? how would he think about it? urgh! screw it!

i'm tired of wondering. i need a hug!

im amazed (this aint april's fool joke!!)

nobody is gonna believe this! coz i couldnt believe it myself either! im surprised. very.

so what is so unbelievable?? this is: -
half an hour on the treadmill, half an hour of yoga, an hour of body combat & an hour of body pump!!!!! beat that! haha.

i dont know what has gotten into me. i guess i needed to release stress. not work-related stress. but something else. and i have not been sleeping well since monday. been having weird dreams. dreamt of the things that i wouldnt wanna see with my own eyes. at least not now. coz i know i wont know how to react if it happens in front of me. i suck. i know.

after that 3 hours of gym, i almost died while i was driving home. haha. i cant feel my legs and my arms. they dont belong to me. i dont feel them with me. was having a hard time in the shower too! couldnt really lift my arms up to wash my hair. haha. crap! i wonder if i can wake up to work tmr. anyhow, im amazed!!

anyways, im dead tired. hopefully i get to sleep well tonight. and hopefully i get some sweetdreams! although the sweet things dont happen to me in my real life. but whats wrong with just dreaming of it right?! or maybe i'll just dream of those happy moments i had back then. *fingers crossed*

till then. ~cheers~


*im still very much amazed! haha..*

forever, i will remember you...

its been a while...

it has been almost 2 months since i last updated my blog. life has been pretty hectic. or i should say i have been keeping myself busy. for some reasons.

i was looking at some photos just now. i thought i was alright when i look at them. but it wasnt like that at all. my heart still aches. and i hated myself for feeling this way. the feeling sucks. i could barely breathe.

anyways, i actually dont really know what i wanna blog today. i guess i just wanted to jot down my feelings. till then.


-still aching...