.the lil' corner of mine.

11.1.11

2011-01-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

My first post in 2011. Instead of blogging on the 1st Jan, i'm blogging now on the 11th Jan 2011. Still a special date i guess. Anyways, how's 2011 treating everyone so far? My 2011 just keeps getting busier. But better. =)

Work. Work. Still work. Mom is getting worried. Dad is complaining. But i do love my work. Indeed, it has been very tiring even tough this is just the eleventh day. Well like i said, this year will be an extremely busy year with all the changes, all the new systems, and all the pressure. Thank god i'm still able to work under all the pressure without losing any extra hair. *Hallelujah* But my panda eyes show everything. *Damn!*

This year, i no longer teach Maths. Principal wants me to focus in teaching English. Sounds like a good news?? If you think so, you are wrong then! Focus means i've got more classes now. My colleagues almost fainted after looking at the amount of books that i need to mark every single day. I will never have a empty table this year. Anyhow, i'm not complaining. I'm just doing what i like. Maybe, just maybe, busy is a good thing to me.

Just the other day, mom asked - "Did you forget how to enjoy and have fun anymore?"
Right away i said "NO WAY!!!!" "Of course i still enjoy my life, mom!"
And dad....he said the meanest thing - "Yah, there's no way she will ever forget THAT!! Look at her tummy and all the dining places she goes to and all the booze she's having! And did you see that bottle of wain she had that night?!! That thing cost a bomb! Did your daughter kena lottery or something?!!" *giving daddy the death stare*

I'M JUST PAMPERING MYSELF AFTER ALL MY HARDWORK, DAD~!! JUST LIKE YOU! LIKE FATHER LIKE DAUGHTER~!! =P

Anyways, i wonder how my 2011 will be. All i know for now is that i'm gonna have to spend alot this year looking at all my travel iteneraries. See?!! How not to work hard?!!! Besides travelling, my 2011-MUST-BUY-LIST!! Gosh...gotta look for more tuition soon! Haha..

Oh btw, i wanna wish all the January babies (including myself) a blessed birthday! =)
When i was a kid, i've always felt sad for being born in the January. Because back then, i didn't have many friends who were born in the same month. But now, omg i'm telling you, Jan babies?!! MANY of them!! Lets do the maths, shall we? SFang, RLing, XFang, CHui, Isaac, Cher-May, Christine, YM, Jeleven, PeiPei, YN, WD, Jon, Darren, Maya, Sherry, CK, KWei, Kenny, Wayne, SH, Elias, Stefan, Pin, Samantha, KN, SK, Louise, Estelle, XM, Kohilan, Phoon & ME~!! Okay i think i lost count! Just too many! I'm sorry if i missed you out!

On an unrelated note, there's this b*tch who is really getting on my nerves!! If you don't like what you read, then don't bloody stalk my blog, you idiot!! Don't go say that i'm lying and all! What's the point of lying?! Do i get money from it?! This is my blog my personal corner my place to vent out my feelings and all. In fact, you are the LIAR you b*tch ! Just f*ck the hell off!! >.<

Phew~!! *counting 1...2....3.....* Okay, back to happy mode! =)

I'm going Singapore with my uni buddies this weekend! Yay yay yay! Can't wait can't wait! I'm so excited already!!!!!! *jumping up and down*

Till then. Nitez people! Cheers~!!

NYE WARNING~!!!!!!!!

2010-12-31T16:38:00.001+08:00

Today is the very last day of 2010. So what have you achieved over the year? Have you done anything significant to your life? Well it doesn't need to be something really huge you see as long as it means something to you. Like have you done anything that you never thought you'd do it? I know i did. *cheers to that =) * So how was your 2010? I hope u all had a good one.

What about mine?? Shall we start recalling from the beginning of the year? Well i ought to say my 2010 did not start off too good as i was still going thru some really hard times that happened end of last year. It actually got harder or more heart-breaking i should say starting Jan 2010 after i found out the truth. The truth that was so hurtful i could barely breathe. It felt like it was the end of the world. I kinda felt i was betrayed at some point of time. But if you know me, i'm not a revengeful person. Yes, i was hurt. But i didn't blame anyone. I put all the blames on myself. Not to be a hero. It's just me. Foolish and naive - these are what close friends said about me for blaming myself for what happened. My besties kept telling me (until today they sometimes still bring it up) that real friends wouldn't do 'that' to me, 'they' don't worth my tears, and that i should stop caring for 'them'. Well i doubt i'd totally stop that. Coz after all i still treat them as my friends.

Anyways, it took me some time to actually get over what has happened. And i did. I got over it. But frankly if you were to ask me whether i totally stopped thinking about him, i'd say no. Because to me i think it is kinda impossible to completely forget a person that has made a huge impact to my life and that i truly love. All i can say is that i'm happy now and i will always pray that they will last happily forever. Because seeing him happy is the only thing i want. So what's so significant about this incident? Well i am back to who i have always been. Except in 2009. People around me are glad to see the cheerful me again. I myself too feel that i'm a happier person. I guess everything happens for a reason. And this incident has taught me alot. I learnt it the hard way as it cost me someone dearly. But like i always say - suck it up! Life goes on. So i picked up all the broken pieces and moved on. I learnt that even though people give up on me, I will never ever give up on myself! Because giving up means you are going to lose something. So i'm still very much proud of myself. I guess i grew the fuck up! Haha. *what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger*

Okay, sad things aside. I did something really SIGNIFICANT in June! I climbed Mount Kota Kinabalu - the highest mountain in South East Asia! Did you see that??!! The highest people the highest!! Ok i'm making it sounds like a really big deal here now. But it is the big deal to ME! *clap clap* =P I made it all the way to the peak! Beat that! Grandma & mommy said i was outta my mind. Daddy is extremely proud of his baby girl! Teehee...=) It was an awesome experience. It reminded me of how much i love the outdoors the adventures. Adrenaline junkie dad calls me. Daddy wants to do it too after i told him how awesome it was. Now i know where i got the gene from. ^.^ And i'm telling you it is a different world when you're standing at the top over-looking whats beneath you. It's not the ego you see. It's the achievement! You have to feel it yourself. It was hell of an experience. It was worth all the hardships and obstables. Heaven!

Other than Mount KK, another significant thing that i've done was that i learned how to say No. I've been warned many many times by family & close friends that i've got to say no at some point of time. I can't be doing everything for others. Neither colleagues nor friends. So yah, i've learnt to say no. But it seems like i'm breaking the rules again haha. But no worries, i will say no when i really can't be of any help.

Hmmm...what else? That i found myself really REALLY love kids? Haha. Well most people do i believe. Anyways, job wise.... I'm going back to work again on Monday after the 2-month holidays. Gears up! I guess i really like teaching. I have the passion for it which nobody including myself ever understand why this happened. Because i've always been the naughty and lazy one back in school. Who will ever believe that i'm a teacher now. Actually i kinda pity my students now haha! Coz almost everything they attempt to do, i'd know before hand. Why? Coz i'm kinda like "Ms Been-There-Done-That". So i know. Haha! All in all, i love my job! Things with colleagues are good too. Speaking of job, 2011 is gonna an EXTREMELY busy year! Syllabus changed, system changed, and pressure on! Well i hope my students' result will improve under my guidance and 'special treatment' haha. *fingers crossed & praying hard*

Alright, have i done anything new this year except mount kk? Hmm...oh hell yeah! There are a few. Paintball in the muddy jungle. Driving range. Went into the casino & actually placed bets. Rock climbing. Yah thats about it i guess. These all gave me really good experiences and exposures. I'll definitely do it again. Except for the casino la. Lol.

Last but not least, I have made it a point to go away / travel alone for a few days every December. The purpose is for myself to rest n relax and to get ready for the coming new years. It's like a meditation break. Lol. This year i went to PD. Stayed at a pretty decent hotel - Avillion Admiral Cove. It was all good. I got to just lay down and think about what has happened this year, and think about what am i going to achieve next year. And i got all the rest i wanted. Bliss!

Now i've warned you from the very beginning that this is a LONG post! See the "WARNING" sign on my title?!! Haha. Alright, i'll leave my new year resolution for the next post. Till then everyone. See you next year! Tomorrow maybe haha.

~ HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 ~

that's y i need time that's y i need u to understand

2010-11-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

let me open up and start again
but there's a safe around my heart
i don't know how to let you in
that's what keeps us apart........

the sweetest thing...

2010-10-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

I have been ditching the gym for quite some time now. And since my tuition is cancelled today, so i went to the gym after work. To feel less guilty. Lol. Then 20 mins on the treadmill and i got a private number phone call. At first, there was nobody over the phone. Then along came some music. It was the sound of a piano being played. I recognised the song. It was Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. And as i listened to the song, i teared. I guess this song meant something to me. Those memories kept popping up.

Anyways, tears aside. I couldn't really put in words how happy i was when i heard his voice over the phone! I have been missing him badly after he left Malaysia. We talked like how we used to. We teased each other like how we used to. We called each others' nicknames like how we used to. We were just like how we used to. It was all laughter. And i'm glad to know how much he misses me. =)

It wasn't easy for us. Especially the times when he was about to leave the country. He wanted to spend almost everyday with me. Same goes to me. Coz we both know we don't get to see each other for quite some time after that. And so we cherished every moment we had together.
We talked about a lot of things today. Like there were no boundaries at all. We enjoyed every minute over the phone. Anyways, he is such a sweetie pie! Lotsa love to him! XOXO..

CHEERS~~

so speechless...

2010-10-12T17:55:00.002+08:00

Mel^Mel

2010-09-27T17:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to my gorgeous cousin sista Mellisa Lee!!

*don't worry i aint gonna announce ur age here haha*

aint she just pretty...

together with my future cousin-in-law..

congrats on the engagement... cant wait for the actual wedding date!

Anyways, hope you have a blast today!

See ya tomorrow! Muacksss!

breathe in... breathe out...

2010-09-27T16:40:00.000+08:00

everyone....

2010-09-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL /

HAPPY MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL /

or whatever you call it..

blue moon?? nah...nobody calls it happy bluemoon festival right..

now... thats better!!

though i dont understand the chinese sentences written in the pic..

Anyways, have a great one guys!

CHEERS~~

to my 200 kids

2010-09-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

GOOD LUCK & ALL THE BEST

to all my 200 students who will be sitting for the UPSR exams starting tomorrow!

CHEERS~~

He's 4 !!

2010-09-19T15:55:00.001+08:00

Danial Rumman LEE aka Romeo aka Babyboi

(my cousin's son)

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Babyboi !!

i'm telling you.. he is such a darling!!

i can't wait to see you and hug you and play with you and eat with you and sleep with you and tease you and pinch you and kiss you !!

faster come back to msia!

miss you heaps!!

muackssssss! *hugs*

cravings...

2010-09-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

Karen and I went to Midvalley this noon. Wanted to watch Step Up 3 but the queue was too damn long. Trust me when i say that! Lol. Then it came to the where-to-have-lunch scene. We totally LOVE food. But food always make us headache when it comes to deciding what to eat. We always throw the same question to each other back and forth. Haha. But oh well it didn't take TOO long this time around. Karen said since i just had surgery, i had to eat something light. For example PORRIDGE! There u go. We headed to Canton-i for some chinese food right away. And i was such a good girl (yah i WAS, coz u gotta wait till u see what i had for dinner! haha!) I really ordered porridge! Thank goodness i love eating porridge too. Lol.

After lunch, we went to do some shopping. And the same thing happened AGAIN! Everytime I'd be the one saying i'm not buying anything. Everytime it ends with me getting all those papers bags in my hands! Like every single time!! Urgh!! I think i seriously need some help with this sickness. Haha. I'm soooo gonna cancel ONE credit card soon!

Then we decided to have something sweet. Dessert time! Yay! I suggested Pastis. So we were on our way walking over to Gardens. But i guess i was lazy to walk over there. We ended up having cake in Delicious when we walk passed there. See how lazy i can be? Haha. Even for desserts we had to do the "one-two-juice" to decide which cake to choose. Hahahah. In the end we had the banana pudding with vanilla ice-cream and hot caramel syrup. It was good.

banana pudding with vanilla ice-cream & hot caramel syrup

cute-ness

dumb-ness

hot-ness

speech-less

We left MV around 6pm separately. She headed back to her dear Edward, while I headed back to my beloved BROTHER! Haha. Had a dinner date with my bro. Picked him up and off we headed out for dinner. Jalan 222 Hokkien Mee!! Yum yum yum... So unhealthy but SO F*cking NICE! Haha.

hokkien mee and wat-tan-hor

look whos the hungry one!

the thumbs-up fried chicken

On another unrelated note, mom has been asking me to wear more clothes on as i just had a surgery and im having a lil cold right after the surgery. So she insisted I MMS her on my daily outfits. Gosh! And so today i did what i've been asked to do. Here are the pics for today.

the first pic i mms-ed

(got a reply in less than 1-min time. mom: put more clothes on darling!)

changed, and mms-ed mom again.

(mom: i can't see ur face!

me: i thought u only wanna see my outfit of the day!

mom: together with ur face pls. i miss u.

me: awww thats so sweet! but mom, im not good at camwhoring!

mom: nvm. i will still love u even if u look ugly.

me: i dun feel like replying you, mom!)

nah! together with my face! lol..

to the man i look up to the most

2010-09-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

and to the man i love the most..

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DADDY!!

thank you for providing us the best of everything..

you really are the best father one could ever ask for..

I LOVE YOU, DAD !!

BBQ at the comfort of our home sweet home..

dad the club president making a speech.. haha..

all his friends..

my dad looks the smartest okay! muacksss..

KLIA - before i left for UK

the best parents award goes to them! ^.^

CHEERS~~

the reason

2010-09-12T23:56:00.001+08:00

*counting with fingers*
I've not been hitting the gym for 3 weeks now. Hence the bloated tummy. The reason?? Its not because that i'm lazy. Well not totally. Heh. I was scheduled for a surgery last wednesday. That was why.

What surgery? Well...ain't gonna announce to the world here. But no worries, it was medium-risked, and i'm all good now. (duh! if not i won't be writing this here now) The fact that i need to undergo full anaesthesia, that was the scariest part for me coz i was so paranoid. I was afraid I'd experience "Awake" ala Hayden Christensen in the same-titled movie - the one starring Jessica Alba too.

The feeling of being pushed to the operating theatre was exactly how they portrayed in movies / drama series. The sight of lights on the ceiling...the sounds emitted from the EKG machine...my hand being IV-prepared... wearing the robe (stark naked underneath)...the cold air... Hmmmm.

To be honest, the moments spent being on the 'bed', being pushed from my ward to the operating theatre was haunting. I almost teared. Luckily i didn't. Coz I believe, if i did, it would not stop. Haha. Thank goodness I managed to stay strong and held back my tears.

Anyways, thank you Dr S (the one who performed the surgery) and Dr R (the anaesthesiologist) for the constant assurance that everything will be alright. =) I was surprised at my fast recovery despite feeling very drowsy when i first got out of the operating theatre, sleeping so many hours on and off.

Hehe. I still remember...one of the nurses was telling me (when she put a gas mask over my face).. "if you feel like sleeping, just go ahead..". And.... Poof.... next thing i know.. I've passed out. The moment i woke up, i was so blur. I wasn't even sure if the procedure has been carried out. I wanted to ask the nurse standing next to my bed..."It's done??".. Haha. Luckily i didn't. I would have looked / sounded so silly. Finally got a confirmation when i felt a slight pain. Lol.

And thank god the hospital has all my favourite channels on tv. I spent my time there watching premier league and tennis us open. And also a couple of movies like X-Men Origin, Rush Hour and Surrogates. I just realized i did not lose any weight at all for being sick. In fact i put on weight! Damn. I guess its because all i did was eat and sleep. Hence the extra kilos. Sigh. Gotta hit the gym soon!!

you are missed

2010-09-06T12:57:00.002+08:00

It has been a week now since you've been gone. We still think about you alot we miss you dearly. Granny and aunt and mom and all of us sometimes still wonder why did He have to take you away from us. But we all know that you are gone for good this time. We're learning to accept the fact that you won't be coming back. We really miss you a lot.

Yes, life goes on for us. But not a day goes by without you being missed. Nope, not under my watch. We miss you dearly every single day. I think about you, how we used to play and joke around together, every night before i go to bed. We will live our life to the fullest and happily. This we promise you. Just like how you did, even when you were sick. You were so strong. You have set us a great example. Thanks coussie!

You take care k. We wish you well up there. Love you always.

your words couldn't set me free...

2010-08-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

Grandma must go on an operation tomorrow, doc said. Yes. Tomorrow! It is that urgent! But grandma didn't want to undergo another operation. She's tired. Really tired, she said. It hurts me so so much seeing her like that. Tears just came out when i was showering. And i thought to myself. Why is this happening? Yes, i said something i told her the truth. If it was meant to be a punishment, punish me then! Stop making my grandma to go thru all these. I don't mind suffering. I don't mind going thru all the hardships. Shits happen to me anyways. So no difference. I just want people around me family friends to be happy and healthy.

A letter, i wrote. And put it under her pillow when she was asleep.

To the love of my life,

Yes. You are unquestionably one of the loves of my life. You are undeniably one of the most precious people in my whole life. I was born to love you. And i really do love you. A lot. I would do anything for you. I really mean anything.

I know i hurt you badly. But as much as i hope that i could undo the things i did. I actually wouldn't. Because all i wanted was to tell you the truth. I didn't want to hide anything from you. But the words you said to me, they couldn't set me free. Now i'm stuck here in this life i didn't ask for. Your last words keep playing in my head. And they really hurt, you know.

I'm sick. I'm tired too. In fact, i'm exhausted. Everyday i have to put up a smile to work to everywhere i go and pretend that everything is fine when i'm actually devastated deep down. I've been thru feeling betrayed by someone i dearly love. I know how it feels. I'm sorry i hurt you. But like i said, i wouldn't undo the things i said. Honesty, the third lesson you taught me when i was still a lil kid, remember?

I wanted to start fresh. I must move on. I know. I promised myself from the beginning of this year, the old Joey must come back! The old-and-better Joey. I am back! At least i think so. You know, it wasn't easy at all before i decided to come clean. Honesty was seriously the hardest thing for me at that point of time. But i did what i had to. And i'm really sorry.

So please forgive me. I miss you. I really need you to be with me. I couldn't and wouldn't even imagine my life without you. Most importantly, please be healthy and stay strong. You being sick is the last thing i want k. So please stay healthy always. Whether or not you'd forgive me. I will always love you.

Love,
Joey.

She will be fine. I'll pray hard.

eenie meenie minie mo.... urgh!!!!!

2010-08-28T17:25:00.000+08:00

i can't decide!!!!! how how????!!!

Blackberry Bold 2 White

Apple iPhone 4

?????

previously

2010-08-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

just some photos from the other day...

can't-wait-to-go-out-with-dad look..

garden salad, loved the salad dressing..

some thai steamed seabass

dad wanted a nice shot for his fb profile pic...so vain! lol..

he may not be the world's most handsome dad.. but he's the world's greatest dad to me..

i love you max, dad! =)

seriously delicious cheeseburger

very nice pappardelle with ceps (we licked the plate clean! haha!)

button-mushrooms and tiramitsu

it was all good.. until...

2010-08-26T01:07:00.003+08:00

i took sick leave today as i was having stomach upset. it was all kfc's fault! anyways i was over the top when daddy called this morning. we were going out for brunch and do a little shopping. (shopping! he said shopping! how cool is that!) and so i just kissed my stomach upset goodbye. retail therapy babeh! oh yeah! i like!

so off i went to shower. didn't even have time to put on any skincare product. coz dad was downstairs waiting. not that he'd mind waiting for his beloved daughter. it was me! i cant wait to go makan and shopping u see. haha! so i just roughly dried my hair and slipped on a pair of jeans and topped with a polo-T. then off i go. once i got into the car. i hugged my dearest daddy real tight.

dad: i........i.........i cant breathe darling...

me: oh...oops.. sorry.. ppl miss u ma..

dad: yah i know... i miss u too.. but i know the real reason behind this real-tight-hug.. coz i just said shopping over the phone!

me: -damn-

anyways, we went to delicious for lunch. it was a pretty heavy one. dad has always been a small eater. but he made me ate soooo much today. god i really should stop eating like a cow and starting puasa-ing. haha. it was quite a long lunch. we talked alot and laughed alot like nobody's business. or should i say we crapped alot. haha! well i guess dad knows that im stressed up lately. so we didn't touch on any serious topic. except that he asked me if my youngest bro is dating at the moment. (well its not actually a serious topic. so yah. and i wonder since when dad starts to busybody bout this. it has gotta be my bro's phone bill i guess. haha!) good luck dad! *fingers crossed*

then the real thing kicked in! (and stupid me i forgot to pull off my puppy-eyes-look!)
dad: u know... though i said shopping... yah u can today.. but only on necessities u see.. u need to control ur spending.. stop buying things u dun need... (and i thought we'd not touch on serious stuff hah!)

me: i need a bag daddy...

dad: like i said my dear.... necessities... things u really really need...

me: yah.. i know the meaning of necessities dad... thats what i said... i NEED a bag...

dad: *rolled-eyes & saying my-gawd* u dun NEED a bag darling... u just want it... and u have so many bags already..

me: fine... i'll just work my ass off and save up and buy on my own then.. so go back and tell mom i wont be able to buy house by this year k.. (im surprised that i didn't use my puppy-eyes-look!)

dad: *palms slapped on his own forehead* i sent u to school and u dun understand the definition of necessity.. btw fyi im not forcing u to buy a house.. it was never my intention.. u know very well its mom's tactic to make u stay.. so u have gotta tell mom on ur own.. (evil-smile)

me: u...u.... u ditched me! u ditched me dad!! i cant believe it!! (after a minute of pausing) fine.. necessity it is then.. i lost my e-dictionary.. so i want an e-dict..

dad: u want or u need??..alright alright.. since it sounds educational.. e-dict it is then.. lets go buy now..

me: but bag sounds educational too dad... i can teach my kids to pronouce Chanel, Hermes, LV, YSL...etc... bla bla bla... alright.. i shall stop before u strangle me.. thanks for the e-dict dad! =)

so i guess today was HIS shopping day. not mine. i was just there to give opinions/advices here and there when he tried on many many clothes. now u know where i got the gene from. i meant the shopping habit. haha! anyways dad always goes to me when it comes to clothes and shoes and all. mom too. apparently i have good tastes. haha! (good to know)

well at least im not empty handed today. got an e-dict which cost dad RM1500. im more than happy with that one thing. see...its not THAT hard to make me happy. haha! really...seriously...its NOT hard at all. =)

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dad went for a dinner appointment. and i had my dinner with ym @ alexis gardens. i was soooo happy to see her. we were chatting and laughing all the way to alexis. then guess what?! k and w were dining there too! what a small world. its a wednesday somemore. who would expect this. rare. it was my first time seeing them together. they look great. happy for them. initially i wanted to go over to say hi. but they were with friends. so i didn't in the end.

i was rather disappointed that she never say hi or bye. even ym could see that im a little upset about it. she felt weird too that w just walked off like that. and i thought what did i do wrong? i still very much treat her like a good friend. but ym emphasized that i didn't do anything wrong. my other closed friends said the same thing to me before too. they always screw me for putting all the blames on myself.

maybe i should just get over it. yah i should. coz all i ever wanted is for him to be happy. them. and since they are now, i should be more than grateful. im really glad that w made k a happier person. =)

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basically im very very very happy today. had a great day hanging out with dad. father-and-daughter-day-out! what more could i ask for. =) and also nice catching up with ym. she's such a sweetie pie. xoxo.
i just realized this is such a long post. who would wanna read this huh. haha! its been a while since i last blogged a long post. my god! im amazed now. haha!

till then. sleep tight and good nite everyone. CHEERS!

2010-08-25T22:57:00.002+08:00

//..it was only just a dream..//

2010-08-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

.as much as i miss you...

2010-08-22T23:11:00.001+08:00

after looking at the few photos he uploaded..

i feel happy for him.

am really glad that he's living happily..

with all the great things..

and most importantly with all his loved ones around.

when i look at you...

2010-08-11T23:41:00.000+08:00

.....i really miss you..

when i look at you.. i see us..

right there where we belong...

the forgotten

2010-08-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

Now that I remember,

I have a blog! haha!

~CHEERS!~

sorry im late

2010-06-15T12:38:00.000+08:00

i wanted to post this last night. but i couldn't. was not feeling well so i went off to bed early.

yesterday was my best friend karen's birthday! we've known each other for more than 10 years now. a decade babeh! we've been very closed to each other since we were 13. we started off as roommates. room 309 i still remember. it was a great year. a memorable one. all the roommates were wonderful. i miss them. i miss all the activities and silly things we did together, all the dinner we had, all the laughter and happiness.

karen and i, we slept opposite each other. back then she said i looked like garfield because of the garfield pillow that i hug to sleep every night. haha! she was a darling to me. she still is. and she always will be. she has been taking real good care of me ever since we were form 1. she's my nanny. hehe!

we did a lot of things together back then. both legally and illegally. hah! not that we don't do stuff together now. just that those were silly stuff we did when we were young. and i'm trying to reminisce! i'm nostalgic! lol. anyways, she's my best friend! we share everthing. happiness and sadness. except for lingerie those la! haha!

anyways, words can't really describe how grateful i am to have her as my best friend. i think she will know without me blogging every details here. haha! i love you karen!! and i will always be here for you!! nothing will ever change our precious friendship! you're irreplaceable!! =)

now, pictures pictures! *look at how hot and pretty she became! slurpp!!*

(i know i'm not hot. just bare with me. or u can always look at my hot best friends only! haha!)

celebrated her bday earlier that year before i left for UK

Malacca

her 23rd bday @ jogoya

camwhoring in my car... haha..

christmas eve dinner @ the daily grind

all my friends are such hotties!! yum yum..

library

her graduation!! so proud of her!! xoxo..

the gardens

our belated 10th anniversary celebration!!

Alrite... thats all for now..

CHEERS~~

World Cup Fever !!

2010-06-12T13:06:00.000+08:00

GOAL ~~~~~~

i need my credit card!

2010-06-02T17:05:00.001+08:00

I lost my credit card the other night. I was so f*cking drunk at Sultan Lounge last saturday night until i didn't take my card and totally didn't sign the transaction! And the staff didn't even notice. He could have reminded me. Then i wouldn't have lost my credit card now. Lol.

Had to lodge a police report just to waive the RM50 fees for replacement card. And now i need to wait for a month or so for the card. ~~Life is so hard without credit card!~~ Lol. Though there are still other cards that can be used, it messes up my cc plans now. I've been using this card for dining expenses. I guess i'll just need to stop eating ~~good~~ expensive food for a period of time now. Damn.. But thank god there are still many good food which are cheap! Haha! Well losing the card might be a good thing now that i will have to spend less. I can do this I can do this I can do this I can do this I can't do this! Lol.

On an unrelated note, i'm in a dilemma now. Purse vs Investment! I've been wanting to buy a new purse. And have narrowed down to 2 choices now. Then until last night when me and my cousin were talking about some investments, i'm at a crossroad now. Lol. I can only choose one. Only one. Coz i don't have enough money to make both happen especially after i bought some sterling pounds yesterday. Argh!

Purse ---> i want it, but i don't need it..

Investment ---> i want it, i don't it either... lol.. but its for my future! *think of the bright side joey goh!*

I'm trying to convince myself to go for investment! Ditch the purse! *go to the bank tmr go to the bank tmr go to bank tmr!!*

Alrite. Enough bullshits said. Lol. *i'm in a meeting actually*

CHEERS~~

i hope i dont shit for the next two days

2010-05-16T17:36:00.002+08:00

she wanted something fancy for dinner.

western or jap.

in the end we went Gobo Upstairs @ Traders last night!

the food was good.

no..it was awesome! haha!

the starter the lobster bisque the steaks....

oh my.... it was so goddamn good!

*two thumbs up*
~~literally better than sex! haha! just kidding!~~

i dont wanna shit i wanna keep them inside my tummy for now!

an obligatory shot she said!

then we headed to library for drinks.

i think i should stop going to library for period of time.

coz some of the staff there recognised me.

they even call me "cikgu".

and they remember the crazy stuff i did there!

crap!

fun night !

anyways, im going klang for seafood soon!

crabby prawns fishes......etc

here i come! haha!

CHEERS~~

another late night....

2010-05-15T12:46:00.000+08:00

......followed by early morning.

got home around 5ish this morning,

and got up at 8am to work!!

i am supposed to be still in school now,

but i sneaked out!

i cabut-ed way earlier than anyone else i guess.

i just cant stand it anymore!

have been working/meeting on every effing saturdays for the past 2 months!!

too much!!!!!!!

thats it!!

im all worn out !!

dead tired..

because...

2010-05-12T23:20:00.002+08:00

sorry coussie!

because i saw someone there,

u didnt get to eat the bak kut teh.

because of me,

we ought to change place for dinner.

but i really really didnt expect that at all.
i was shocked too.

im sorry!

because i didnt really hope to see it,

coz i dont know how would i react in front of them.

its not that im not happy for them.

im really happy for him.

at least i know now that hes a happy man.

i guess its just my problem.

im not good at this.

i wonder when will i stop caring so much.

when people dont give a damn about it.

and when the fact that i have lost all the faith months ago.
i dont understand why do i still care.

i suck!!

wake up joey goh!!
*slap*

i made the right choice

2010-05-11T22:38:00.000+08:00

today, i reached jaya 33 at 5.52pm in the evening.

i was wondering if i should just head in and pay by hour, or i should wait outside until 6pm to pay flat rate at RM1.50.

in the end, i chose to wait outside the gym.

i went in at 6.02pm. haha!

then when i was about to head to shower and leave the gym,

i found out that i left my purse in school. damn!

so i went to my car to look for coins to pay for parking.

and guess what?!

i found exactly RM1.50 !!

and this is what i meant by making the right decision!

i made the right choice by waiting outside the gym till 6pm! haha!

thank god!

CHEERS~~ ;)

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

everyone went back to hometown for this mother's day..

it was a surprise.

to mommy and also to granny!

haha!

then we had a simple yet yummilicious dinner at a restaurant.

it was a great sat night with family as everyone is back.

every single one! ^.^

we headed to granny's place after dinner.

granny looked soooo happy seeing all her children & grandkids! :)

even aunty jennifer video-called back all the way from US.

she still looks the same.

i miss her and her son baby caleb so much!

we actually asked aunt jenn to call granny, daddy they all using her landline,

so that we could just look and talk to baby caleb thru the webcam. haha!

and oh boy, my baby caleb has grown up so much!

i dont know why am i still calling him baby when he's already like 12yo! haha!

he said he misses me all the times!

aawww so sweet of him. hehe!

too bad we didnt get to talk too long as aunt jenn needed to go to work.

then we had snacks, we watched Ip Man, we talked...

until granny finally yawned. haha!

which it was about 1am already!

ZZzzzzzzz......

sunday morning!

i got up at 9am omg!

i had to force myself to get up haha!

coz i want to make lasagna for mommy :)

wished mommy HMD and showered her face with kisses! haha!

*she pushed me away n asked me to brush my teeth 1st half way thru the kisses! haha!*

and so i procrastinated...

only started to prepare and cook at 11am!

well it was my first time making lasagna.

i was practically praying hard while preparing all the ingredients hoping that it wouldnt turn out so bad! haha!

and i did not do it the short-cut way.

i did not buy the instant sauce and all.

it was all homemade. teehee ^.^

*clap clap*

mommy tried to help but i shoo-ed her away. haha!

part of the ingredients.

there were also some other stuff like those fresh herbs n all..

my favourite part of all the ingredients!

cheeeeeeseeee babeh! haha! the more the merrier lol..

cooking in-process

didnt manage to use all.

so i kept it in bottles and put them in the fridge.

and i personally think that it was better than pregos! haha!

syiok sendiri! =P

baking in-process - covered with foil for 25 mins

then baked uncovered for another 25 mins

though it doesnt really look presentable.

but everyone said it was nice! *so happy* haha!

they said it was cheesy it was tasty! ^.^

they gave me 8.5 out of 10 points!

im more than satisfied and happy with that!

coz i rated myself 6. haha!

after lunch there was a cake-cutting ceremony. lol.

a fruit cake for the mothers.

and an ice-cream cake for my big brother.

his 31st birthday tomorrow!

so i bought an ice-cream cake from haagen dazs for him.

it was darn expensive!

but screw it! lol.

didnt get to take any picture of it.

coz it left only quarter of it when i figured i wanna take pic. haha!

as for mother's day pressie.

mommy got a whole set of expensive skincare from big bro.

a huge angpao from 2nd bro.

and a celine handbag from me.

and hugs and kisses from my youngest bro. haha!

as for granny.

daddy and aunts and uncle bought her some sauna bed.

i tried on it. it was quite comfy actually.

anyways, time to head to bed soon.

again,

Happy Mother's Day to All Mothers out there k!

and i love you mommy! muackksss! =)

CHEERS~~

few more years down the road

2010-05-08T13:34:00.001+08:00

i don't think i'll be able to handle late nights follow by early mornings anymore!!

haha!

got home around 5am this morning,

and meeting at 8.30am !!

call me champion coz i got up from my bed !!

oh yeah i did !!

and came up with fantastic presentation apparently !!

they loved the feedback n all..

teehee ^.^

but then again, like i said,

i don't think i can take this anymore few years down the road..

getting old soon.. sigh..

maybe thats y i should enjoy it now.

haha!

anyways, finger-licking-good dinner tonight!

can't wait can't wait!

i miss my family sooooo sooooo much!

CHEERS~~

-...........-

2010-05-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

me and the four walls

2010-05-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

its still not working!!
:(

last night...

2010-04-30T15:58:00.001+08:00

i received a really really bad news last night. all the way from taiwan. i was practically trembling over phone when i was being told about the bad news. i didnt know how to react. it shocked me. well i guess it shocked everyone who knows her.

from this incident, it got me thinking..i guess people always say that those people who committed suicides for love or stress or just for hard times are stupid and they are all idiots..and they shouldnt have done that n all... but have we ever put ourselves in their shoes? well even if we have, we wouldnt really know how exactly they feel right. coz bad things are not happening to us. people always say - "i know how you feel". but do we really know? do we? we only know that they feel upset n all. but deep down, only that person himself/herself will know how he/she feels.

though i myself had been thru one of those hard times and had stupid thought before, i dont think im in a position to say that shes stupid. coz like i said, i wouldnt really know her true feelings. although we faced more or less the same situation, i still wouldnt say - i know how she feels. but now, i cant even get the chance to talk to her.

i guess people around her would have said that shes an idiot. but maybe for her, thats the best way to deal with her situation. or maybe she just didnt know or didnt wanna deal it in any other way but this. anyhow, i guess sometimes people just need to stop saying that this group of people are stupid n all. we dont get to judge. we dont get to judge them just because they tried to kill themselves outta love. coz maybe we wont know how much he/she loves that one person. love is really blind sometimes. and we cant say that its a very bad thing. coz at least it makes you realize how deep the love is.

on another note, i was crying last night after the call. and i didnt know how the hell my hp accidentally called him. something must have gone wrong with my phone. then he called back. i didnt answer the first time coz i didnt want him to know i was crying. i didnt expect at all that he'd call the second time. so i picked up. and he noticed something was wrong with my voice. but i said nothing. deep down, i wanted talk to him so bad when i answered the call. but once i think of my position, i said nothing. who am i to talk to him about my feelings. im not in that position. i used to have him to talk to and his shoulder to cry on. but this is not the situation anymore.

you've got it already..

2010-04-19T15:56:00.000+08:00

两个人一起是为了快乐，分手是为了减轻痛苦，

你无法再令我快乐，我也唯有离开，

我离开的时候，也很痛苦，

只是，你肯定比我痛苦，

因为我首先说再见，

首先追求快乐的是我。。。。 ~ 张小娴

glad that you've found what you have always wanted...
glad that you're so happy now...

crap!

2010-04-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

unbelievable!

i can't believe i'm actually hoping for the impossible, the unreachable, the unlikely!!

what is wrong with me?!!

and i thought i have talked myself into this...

crap!!

i'm so screwed...

i have been trying hard... real hard.. believe me..

but it is always easier said than done..

XX

2010-04-13T11:24:00.000+08:00

the parcel has been long arrived.

i'm still wondering if i should ask him about it. would it be weird? how would he think about it? urgh! screw it!

i'm tired of wondering. i need a hug!

im amazed (this aint april's fool joke!!)

2010-04-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

nobody is gonna believe this! coz i couldnt believe it myself either! im surprised. very.

so what is so unbelievable?? this is: -
half an hour on the treadmill, half an hour of yoga, an hour of body combat & an hour of body pump!!!!! beat that! haha.

i dont know what has gotten into me. i guess i needed to release stress. not work-related stress. but something else. and i have not been sleeping well since monday. been having weird dreams. dreamt of the things that i wouldnt wanna see with my own eyes. at least not now. coz i know i wont know how to react if it happens in front of me. i suck. i know.

after that 3 hours of gym, i almost died while i was driving home. haha. i cant feel my legs and my arms. they dont belong to me. i dont feel them with me. was having a hard time in the shower too! couldnt really lift my arms up to wash my hair. haha. crap! i wonder if i can wake up to work tmr. anyhow, im amazed!!

anyways, im dead tired. hopefully i get to sleep well tonight. and hopefully i get some sweetdreams! although the sweet things dont happen to me in my real life. but whats wrong with just dreaming of it right?! or maybe i'll just dream of those happy moments i had back then. *fingers crossed*

till then. ~cheers~

*im still very much amazed! haha..*

forever, i will remember you...

2010-03-30T17:02:00.000+08:00

its been a while...

2010-03-29T17:26:00.000+08:00

it has been almost 2 months since i last updated my blog. life has been pretty hectic. or i should say i have been keeping myself busy. for some reasons.

i was looking at some photos just now. i thought i was alright when i look at them. but it wasnt like that at all. my heart still aches. and i hated myself for feeling this way. the feeling sucks. i could barely breathe.

anyways, i actually dont really know what i wanna blog today. i guess i just wanted to jot down my feelings. till then.

-still aching...

thats what im talking about!

2010-02-07T23:47:00.001+08:00

5 - 0 !!

5 - 0 babeh..

Thats what im talking about!!

woohoo~~

Man U rocks!!

Let it rocks...let it rocks...let it rocks!!!

CHEERS~~

everything was a lie

2010-01-31T20:25:00.002+08:00

when you ask me "why"

2010-01-19T23:01:00.001+08:00

lately, he's been asking me -why-

but i couldn't really give him an answer

in fact, i can't tell him why

neither can i tell any of them

coz i don't wanna ruin the only friendship we have

or maybe what's left for us

but one thing i can tell him for sure

it is definitely not because he's there

maybe someday he'll know or find out the real reason behind

or maybe he never will

i don't know

all i know now is that i can't tell him -why-

at least not at this point of time

i can only keep it to myself

it's not gonna be easy

what i need to do now is to keep the feeling deep down inside

1st post in 2010

2010-01-11T16:17:00.000+08:00

Twenty-ten is already here.

Time really flies i guess.

I've had ups and downs in 2009.

For instance,

one of the most blissful things has happened to me from the very beginning of 2009,

however it didn't go well no matter how hard i wanted it to be a happy ending.

Also, i wanna say sorry to my parents as i have let them down twice in 2009.

Yet they still love me as always.

I enjoyed my every single moment in 2009

But also regretted certain things that i've said and done.

If only i could turn back time and undo my mistakes...

Nonetheless, without these ups and downs,

I wouldn't have become the person that I am now.

So I wanna thank all my family and friends:

Thank you Daddy Mommy & Bros - for your undying love and support no matter how bad shaped i am.

Thank you All my Beloved Friends (you know who you are) - thanks for being there for me when i needed someone especially during my hard times. Thanks for all the supports. And hugs!!

Thank You (i don't know if you'd be reading this, but thanks!) - you brought me one of the happiest moments in my life which i will never forget. Coz memories are the only things that left for me now. I hope you don't mind me keeping those memories. (but i guess very soon i will no longer be allowed to reminisce given your new status.) Though i have given in my everything, i still think that they are worth it.

Anyways, once again,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Millie & Joey @ Tom, Dick & Harry's

2009-12-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

I was rather emotional on Monday.

I didn't really know how to react to the situation.

Tried asking a few friends out for dinner but most couldn't make it.

So in the end, my beloved cousin teman me instead.

We went to Tom, Dick & Harry's for dinner and drinks.

Rudy and Adam C from HitzFM were there too.

Omg that Rudy lost so much weight!! Lol.

Anyways, I felt a lil' better after spilling out my feelings.

Then we also talked about other stuff.

All in all, it was a great night out with her.

Thanks Millie!! =)

A few pictures of the night:

button mushroom & pork platter

breaded chicken chop

my funny cousin

Millicent !!

the beer we had

deep fried mars & snickers bars with vanilla ice-cream

~~* the two bars there looked like something else hahaha *~~

That's all for now.

Gotta go catch some sleep soon.

CHEERS !! =)

You.. You.. You.. You.. You..

2009-12-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

I Hate YES

2009-12-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

I woke up pretty early today. 10am. It was kinda early for a sunday. Lol. Went to Jaya Palace for ~~lunch~~ brunch with family members to celebrate grandma's birthday. All of us were so ambitious we practically ordered almost everything from the dim sum menu. In the end, we ended up forcing each other to eat! Haha.

After that, I went MV with my bro. I was supposed to get one thing then head home to rest up after that tiring friday. (went hiking in the effing early morning, then a long friday night out!) Instead, i ended up shopping AGAIN!! And its not a small amount! I basically spent my one whole month of salary in just 3 hours time!! OMFG!!

I'm outta control. Lol. I hate YES (Year End Sale)!! I'm so effing broke now!! Can CNY come early next year please??... Haha.

Anyways, christmas and new year are just around the corner. Merry Xmas & Happy New Year Everyone!!

CHEERS!!

Down

2009-12-03T18:22:00.000+08:00

After 16 days of sleepless nights, I'm finally going down. Sorethroat and body ache are visiting me already. I didn't want this. But I couldn't help it. I just couldn't sleep well. Every single night i forced myself to sleep. But it didn't help much. I'm thinking of sleeping pills if this continues. My eye bags are bigger than my eyes now. I look like a zombie. Lol.

Nowadays whenever I'm not working or hanging out with friends, my mind and heart tend to fly to somewhere else. Either that or I'd drive endlessly to those familiar places. Reminiscing. There were so many things that we were supposed to do, so many plans that we have made.

Anyways, put those aside. Today is Jack's birthday!! *Happy Happy Birthday, Jack-S!!* Haha.. Hope you'll have a great one! =)

CHEERS!!

1st December

2009-12-01T09:05:00.000+08:00

It's the 1st today...

It should be a happy day...

It should be a day to be celebrated...

And another 30 days to go...

Never Run Away, Solve It

2009-11-30T02:06:00.004+08:00

~~Why do all these always happen to me before my birthday?!! Argh..~~

Anyways, met up with Tk the other day for dinner then drinks. It has been ages since we last met. It was nice seeing him again. We did some catching up and had really long and nice conversation. He has changed quite a lot I noticed. He’s more matured now.

We talked about almost everything. He told me about his problems with Mel. They are still having the same problem after 3 years together. And he is still solving it, he always believe that he will solve their problem once and for all sooner or later. Never once he gave up on this belief.

And so I learnt a lifelong lesson from him. He told me that no matter what kind of problems I’m facing, I will have to solve them. Even if I failed the first time, I could always try again another time. Over and over again until the problems are solved. That I should never run away from problems. It is never easy, but one should never run away. Coz it makes you a better person when you are doing your best to solve the problems. Running away from difficulties only makes you weak.

And if one is determined enough to change and work things out, one will be able to, no doubt. You'll just need to believe in yourself and have a little faith. And there's nothing wrong with having hopes. Coz people need hopes to live on sometimes. People need to hold on to something they believe in. So do I. And now I will have to keep holding on.

Till then. CHEERS!! =)

2009-11-30T01:35:00.000+08:00

2009-11-20T10:00:00.000+08:00

Don't wanna lose you now..
Baby, I know we can win this..

sometimes people write things that they can't say

2009-11-18T17:01:00.002+08:00

Ya. It's true. In fact, i think it's very true. Sometimes when you have things that you can't say or can't bare to say or even hard to say, you write. You describe in words. Maybe it'd be easier this way. Nonetheless, there are things that you'll have to talk face-to-face. So, it all depends on the circumstances. You'll have to make the right choice at the right time. Though you cannot be right at all times, just give it a shot. Coz people make mistakes. And it is alright to be wrong sometimes. We are all human.

"If someone feels that they had never made a mistake in their life, it means they had never tried a new thing in their life." - Albert Einstein

Anyways, I said something today. Something I didn't mean it at all. And i regretted.

It was not because i purposely wanted to say don't need. It was because i'm scared. I'm scared of what's gonna happen tonight. I can't bare to know.

On another note, in fact a totally different and unrelated note.

If one day, I'm reacting extremely calm (and ya i do mean extremely), especially towards things that i normally do not react calm with, it means i'm not okay. It means disaster is on its way. It's just the matter of time.

Anyways, it just won't stop raining today. *gloomy gloomy*
So, please CHEER me UP !! I need Good News!! =P

last night

2009-11-17T10:47:00.000+08:00

Last night, i wished upon a star. For the first time in my life.

I really hope that we can throw this behind us.

*fingers crossed*

I Love You

2009-11-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

-No Subject-

2009-11-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

Even when you treat them as your best friends,
it doesn't mean that they treat you as one.

Maybe you're a lousy friend...

Maybe you're boring...

Or maybe you're just not the one...

Anyhow just freaking accept the fact!!

2009-10-31T09:39:00.000+08:00

rainy morning

2009-10-31T09:37:00.000+08:00

When i woke up and looked out the window,

it was raining early in the morning today.

I had this sudden urge to go out in the rain.

And i did.

I sat down by the pool, over-looking the sky.

It has been a while since i last sat down in the rain.

It clears my mind off.

It makes me to be able to miss him.

Just him. The only person in my mind now.

The rain calms me down.

And i know what i would really like to do today.

I just hope that it could happen. *fingers crossed*

2009-10-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

. scared .

2009-10-27T15:04:00.002+08:00

.

It's okay to be scared. Coz it means you have something to lose. You're afraid to lose someone or somethings you really care about in your life.

Apologizing does not mean that you are wrong and the other one is right. It simply means that you value the relationship much more than your ego.

I do cherish.

.

grow up

2009-10-26T17:42:00.001+08:00

People change.

Things change.

Things just happen without you even noticing.

Even if it's heart-breaking.

It's not a choice.

So maybe it's about time.

Time to really really grow up.

It doesn't matter if people don't care about your feelings.

That's life.

That's the reality.

Reality is cruel.

The New Love Has Finally Arrived

2009-10-21T20:38:00.003+08:00

Thanks to my beloved Daddy !!

Now a new love has come into my family's life.

Haha....

He's not a new-born baby.

He's our Robot baby !!!

Introducing......

The sizzling hot iRobot Roomba !!

He's here to help us ~~(aka us the lazy fellas)~~ to vacuum the house.

Especially when there's nobody at home.

It's kinda cute seeing him hitting the wall while vacuuming around the house.

Muahahahahaaaha.

He knows how to go back to his own lil' nest to rest when he's tired.

Now everyone in my family is treating him like a baby.

Haha.

Anyways, really thanks alot to my Daddy!!

This lil' devil here cost him almost 3k.

Love u, Dad !!

~ CHEERS ~

2009-10-19T17:15:00.002+08:00

feeling...

2009-10-19T15:28:00.001+08:00

In case you haven't noticed, I'm trying very very hard.

But I don't know why each time you bring that up, I feel a lil' hurt.

I know you'd say that I don't trust you or I think too much, but that's how i feel - unimportant.

I don't wanna feel this way anymore. That's why I'm trying very hard to accept and change.

Just that....... sometimes I really wish I was them.

I really really hope that things will work out this time.

*fingers crossed*

weak week

2009-10-18T16:14:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. So sick. Been sick the whole week. Damn.

It all started with just sorethroat. It got better for a day or two. Then followed by cough and flu.

Have not been sleeping well the whole week. My eye bags. Oh my eye bags. They look bigger than my eyes now. And the dark circles. Arghhh. Grrrrrr.

Feel so weak. It has been a while since I last felt this weak.

Anyways, this has got to end in these 2 days. Please!!

Sleepless Nights

2009-10-17T12:05:00.007+08:00

Another sleepless night

And still staring at the ceiling

I can hear him fighting with her

For no good reason

Will this ever end?

Will this house be a home again?

If I had my way

I'd corner him and say

Put yourself in her position

All she needs is recognition

Love's not enough when you say it

Don't you know gotta mean it?

Screwing up the best thing ever

is something you'll regret forever

Take her and make sure she feels it

Let her know you'll never let her go

------------------------------------------

Sometimes regrets go a long long way..

Come Home

2009-10-11T22:53:00.002+08:00

Nobody

2009-10-10T15:22:00.005+08:00

You always accuse me that I'm thinking too much...

But has it ever occurred to you why do I always have to think??

It's so right if you say "I thought......."

But it's not right if I say "I thought....."

And just when I thought everything was back on track..

You woke me up from my sweet dreams..

Maybe you were right...

Fairy tales are just bullshits..

feels like getting drunk and never wanna be sober to continue with this fucked up life anymore.......

for you

2009-10-06T10:15:00.000+08:00

Breathe

2009-10-03T16:51:00.002+08:00

I can see your face in my mind as I drive away

‘Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way

People are people and sometimes we change our minds

But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie

It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see

‘Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down

Now I don’t know what to be without you around

And we know it’s never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me

You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand

*And I can’t breathe,

Without you, but I have to

Breathe

Without you, but I have to*

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve

People are people and sometimes it doesn’t work out

Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

repeat*

It’s two a.m., feelin’ like I just lost a friend

Hope you know it’s not easy, easy for me

It’s two a.m., feelin’ like I just lost a friend

Hope you know this ain’t easy, easy for me

And we know it’s never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can’t breathe

Without you, but I have to

Breathe

Without you, but I have to

Breathe

Without you, but I have to

I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry

I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry

03102009

2009-10-03T16:08:00.002+08:00

从此。。。

不会再跟以往一样了。。。

再做什么。。

都没用了。。

接受现实吧！！

My New Love

2009-10-02T15:26:00.003+08:00

I have a new love now.

Thanks to Christine!!

I'm loving it!! =)

CHEERS!! ^.^

The Saturday

2009-09-27T15:41:00.005+08:00

Kelvin and I got home around 4am in the morning. We were basically worn out. And the best part was i only got to sleep for an hour or so thanks to my beloved bf!! I had to take care of a big baby the whole night. U know what u did la Kelvin Kok. Lol.

Then we were so exhausted we slept until 4pm in the evening!! Haha. We had our first meal at 4.30pm. We decided to have something light since it was just another few more hours to dinner time. We went to Departure Lounge @ Solaris for the sandwiches. Its quite a nice place to hang out. Nice food and nice settings. We even played chess. Haha.

we love the ambiance there

his coffee & my hot chocolate with mashmallows *winks*

cuban toastini

meatballs parmigiana

thinking my next move

CHEERS!! ^.^

It doesn't need to be.....

2009-09-25T10:42:00.004+08:00

Everthing I'm Not

2009-09-24T12:08:00.000+08:00

Maybe

2009-09-21T18:56:00.004+08:00

Maybe...

there is something missing.

Maybe...

things happened in between.

Maybe...

things changed.

Maybe...

we just hate to admit the truth.

Taylor Swift - Breathe ft Colbie Caillat

2009-09-21T18:44:00.001+08:00

Out-dated Post

2009-09-17T22:38:00.011+08:00

Kelvin and I took a trip to Ipoh last month. It was supposed to be a makan trip. We've listed down all the places that we wanted to go try. But too bad in the end we only got to try a few coz we were just simply too full. Lol. Never mind, there's always next time. Haha.

Pictures Pictures:

the journey

the first thing that got him excited once we reached ipoh town

was a lil' late capturing this pic. most of the food were gone. lol.

happy man

i love the porridge there

yum yum

the crowd

so grand

Foh San Dim Sum Restaurant

while waiting for the boss to shit

the little tiny tree up the hill

some temple

huge ass pimple. too bad i don't know photoshop. damn.

take 2

Classic !! =p

a kopitiam in ipoh oldtown

the specialty drink there

we ordered ipoh hor fun and also chee cheong fun

it was jam. that was why he had this look. lol.

the little helper - GPS

molest !! lol.

tea-time. coffee and toast.

i like the toast there. nice.

starting our journey back home

End of Journey. Lol.

We'll be back!!

CHEERS !!

My Dearest

2009-09-13T22:13:00.003+08:00

13th September !!

An important date to be remembered each year. Lol.

It's my Daddy's Birthday !!

the yummi-licious Opera cake

Jacobs Creek Shiraz Rose

Daddy & Mommy

my cute daddy

Happy Happy Birthday, Daddy !!

I Love You!!

Terima Kasih Banyak-Banyak

2009-09-10T16:28:00.002+08:00

I have just finished marking my standard 6 students' UPSR question papers. Thank God they did not give me a heart-attack. Phew!

The papers are neither tough nor easy. I've got 12 out of 66 students who scored full marks. Muackss! I shall buy them some chocolates soon as rewards. Haha.

Anyways, I wanna thank u guys for not letting me down. And also did not embarrassed me!! Lol.

Till then.

CHEERS!! ^.^

090909

2009-09-09T14:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

Uncle !!

(Kelvin's Dad)

CHEERS !!

All The Best

2009-09-07T17:22:00.000+08:00

I wanna wish

All The Best

to all my Std 6 students

in their UPSR exams!!

^.^

CHEERS !! =)

Sunday Evening

2009-09-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

After that long Saturday night @ Velvet, today i woke up at 3.30pm. I was so hungry when i got up. At first, i was planning to spend some time alone outside today. Its been a while since i last done that. Lol.

Then, a friend of mine called me up and asked me out for a drink. But for me, it was lunch. Haha. In the end, we went to Alexis @ The Gardens as I had this sudden craze for cake. Lol. I brought my laptop along when i went out. Coz i only planned to eat and have a drink with him for a short while.

So after a while, i told my friend that i had to go. So i left. I went to Alexis @ Telawi instead. Lol. It was such a nice and easy Sunday. All i did was just surfing the net, reading articles, listening to music and enjoying my favourite hot chocolate. I also got to clear my mind off before getting back to work tomorrow. I basically spent my whole sunday evening there. I loved it. I guess i'm gonna do this more often in the future.

CHEERS !! ^.^

-No Subject-

2009-09-02T17:04:00.000+08:00

Aarrggghhhhhhh !!!!!!

The Long Awaited

2009-08-30T16:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, Kelvin has finally brought me to Yut Kee Restaurant to try the famous Roti Babi (Zhu Pa Bao) near Heritage Row there. He has been mentioning this in front of me for ages. And now I have finally succeeded in bugging him to bring me there. Lol. There were so many choices to choose from. I wanted to eat all. But obviously i couldn't. Another thing, there were quite a number of foreigners there, and all the staff there speak english. The restaurant looks old, but the business is still very good. And I like the Roti Babi, it wasn't what i expected (i meant the look), but the taste!! It tasted so yummy. I like. ^.^

.the drinks - barley lime.

.the famous Roti Babi.

.chicken chop.

.belacan fried meehoon.

Then after we finished our brunch, Kelvin decided to go KLCC for a walk. For a walk, initially. We were walking/window shopping happily at first. Window shopped for phones. We went into HTC, then Machines, then Sony Ericsson. Then it all began and ended in the Sony Ericsson shop. Lol. He was busy checking out the X1, and asked me to ask the staff if there's any installment plan. So i did. And the answer just brightened up his day. Haha. After considering for like 10 mins, he bought the phone! Awesome!! Lol. On the other hand, I was also planning to get a new phone. And Kelvin suggested to get the same phone. As I didn't want to swipe my credit card, we headed to the ATM machine to withdraw cash. But right after taking out that whole chunk of cash, i deposited it back into my account. Lol. Because we decided not to buy on that day instead. Haha. Planned to get it somewhere else with better bargain.

there he goes - busy playing with his new gadget

stupid phone
lol

his new baby

but thanks to his new baby and also my sharp eyes, i got this!!

complimentary passes to the ATP 2009 !!

Then, we met up with Jack at Coffeebean Solaris. Spent a lil time there before fetching LS. After that, 4 of us went Klang for Seafood for our dinner. Yum yum!! We ordered Kam Heong Crab, Teochew Style Pomfret, Hong Kong Kailan, Lala Fried Meehoon and also Salted Big Prawns. The food there were awesome. All of us did our finger licking good th'ng. Lol. Unfortunately, I couldn't take any picture of the food there. Coz we were too hungry and the dishes were too tempting. I totally forgot to take pictures. Haha.

After the succulent dinner, we went back straight to Bangsar Alexis to meet up with Winnie and Audrey for some drinks and Tiramisu. And Winnie bought us souvenirs from Bangkok. Thanks Winnie the Pooh!! =p

.last pic of the day.

CHEERS !!

English Breakfast

2009-08-24T15:19:00.001+08:00

It was last saturday. Kelvin decided to have english breakfast. So we got up a lil' earlier than our usual saturdays. Then we headed to Jarrod & Rawlins for the breakfast. It was really nice. Nice food, nice weather and with great company. Haha. It reminded us of UK. ^.^

it was raining in the morning while we were having our nice breakfast

the english breakfast kelvin was craving for

and my scrambled eggs with salmon

we were so full after all these

his coffee and my english breakfast tea

Cheers!! ^.^

Can't Wait

2009-08-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

Come on Friday!!

Just another day. Then I'll be having a one-week break. Cool-ness. Yeah babeh. Can't wait can't wait. I need my beauty sleep man.

And i definitely gotta party like a rock star this weekend. Woohoo. I just love my life! Lol. I just hope that i won't bump into any of my students. Lol.

Anyways, i can't think of any interesting updates to blog about. So i guess i'm just gonna stop right here. Take care everyone!

Cheers!! ^.^

Shut Up, Trouble, Manners

2009-08-20T20:50:00.000+08:00

There were these three boys whose names are Shut Up, Trouble and Manners. They are very good friends and they live together in one house.

One day, Shut Up and Trouble were playing hide and seek. Shut Up ran everywhere so that Trouble wouldn't be able to find him.

However, half way thru Shut Up got stopped by a police. The police was just trying to be a caring human being, he was worried that this boy might have got lost.

So the police asked, "Hey boy, are you lost? What's your name?"

And so the boy said, "Shut Up."

"I meant your name. What's your name boy?"

"Shut Up!!!!!"

Then the police got pissed, "Are you looking for trouble?"

They boy said, "No, Trouble is looking me."

"You...You... Where are your manners?!!"

And so they boy answered, "Manners at home, Sir."

Exhausted

2009-08-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

Arghh.

I'm so fucking exhausted la.

Damn.

>.<

Bored

2009-08-14T14:40:00.000+08:00

I'm bored. So bored. F*cking bored that i'm actually updating my blog right now. Coz now i really got nothing to do. As in really nothing to do at all. Lol. Besides waiting for my car to be serviced. Lol. And thank god i brought along my lappie and thank god they have wi-fi here.

Well this week was rather free for me. Coz i only worked for 3 days. Lol. Oh no. No no no. I just realized it wasn't. I've got fucking lots of catching up to do in school. Giving oral test for students, marking their exam papers and also their exercise books, writing that pain-in-the-ass teaching reports. Damn i hate that stupid report. Waste my time only.

On an unrelated note, my students actually missed me when i was on mc a couple of days ago. They kept asking me why didn't i go to school for 2 days. Apparently they missed me. Amazing. Lol. Those lil' bastards actually missed me. Haha.

Anyways, though i'm very bored, i've got nothing else to blog about already. Till then.

CHEERS !! ^.^

My Virgin Post

2009-08-11T14:06:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone...

I was wondering if I should create a blog. Like for the past 3 hours i guess. Well ya. I did now. I guess I was just too free and have nothing better to do. Fyi, i'm sick. So i've got 2 days mc. And i think i'm very sick that i'm blogging it now. Lol. I really have no idea why on earth would i wanna create this blog when i have millions and millions of lazy worms in me. So i might just end up putting my blog aside. Or...or I might actually update it. Shall see shall see. Shall see how long can my blog actually last. *fingers crossed*

Anyways, for those of you that I still haven't got the chance to update u guys. I am actually a teacher now. A primary school teacher. I finally found what I wanted to do most. So whether or not u folks support my decision, I will still continue to be a teacher. So just f*ck off to those who of you that do not support me. Like i care. Lol. And for the record, I do love kids okay! ^.^

Alright, since this is my virgin post, I think i've got nothing much to blog about d for now. Virgin is supposed to be new and innocent. So I think i'm just gonna stop now. Wtf am i talking about. I have no idea. Anyways just ignore it. Lol.

Till then. Take care everyone. Till my next update. *which god knows when*

.the lil' corner of mine.

11.1.11

NYE WARNING~!!!!!!!!

that's y i need time that's y i need u to understand

the sweetest thing...

so speechless...

*Mel^Mel*

breathe in... breathe out...

everyone....

to my 200 kids

He's 4 !!

cravings...

to the man i look up to the most

the reason

you are missed

your words couldn't set me free...

eenie meenie minie mo.... urgh!!!!!

previously

it was all good.. until...

//..it was only just a dream..//

.as much as i miss you...

when i look at you...

the forgotten

sorry im late

World Cup Fever !!

i need my credit card!

i hope i dont shit for the next two days

another late night....

because...

i made the right choice

Happy Mother's Day

few more years down the road

-...........-

me and the four walls

last night...

you've got it already..

crap!

XX

im amazed (this aint april's fool joke!!)

forever, i will remember you...

its been a while...

thats what im talking about!

everything was a lie

when you ask me "why"

1st post in 2010

Millie & Joey @ Tom, Dick & Harry's

You.. You.. You.. You.. You..

I Hate YES

Down

1st December

Never Run Away, Solve It

sometimes people write things that they can't say

last night

I Love You

-No Subject-

rainy morning

. scared .

grow up

The New Love Has Finally Arrived

feeling...

weak week

Sleepless Nights

Come Home

Nobody

for you

Breathe

03102009

My New Love

The Saturday

It doesn't need to be.....

Everthing I'm Not

Maybe

Taylor Swift - Breathe ft Colbie Caillat

Out-dated Post

My Dearest

Terima Kasih Banyak-Banyak

090909

All The Best

Sunday Evening

-No Subject-

Mel^Mel