Friday, December 31, 2010

NYE WARNING~!!!!!!!!

Today is the very last day of 2010. So what have you achieved over the year? Have you done anything significant to your life? Well it doesn't need to be something really huge you see as long as it means something to you. Like have you done anything that you never thought you'd do it? I know i did. *cheers to that =) * So how was your 2010? I hope u all had a good one.

What about mine?? Shall we start recalling from the beginning of the year? Well i ought to say my 2010 did not start off too good as i was still going thru some really hard times that happened end of last year. It actually got harder or more heart-breaking i should say starting Jan 2010 after i found out the truth. The truth that was so hurtful i could barely breathe. It felt like it was the end of the world. I kinda felt i was betrayed at some point of time. But if you know me, i'm not a revengeful person. Yes, i was hurt. But i didn't blame anyone. I put all the blames on myself. Not to be a hero. It's just me. Foolish and naive - these are what close friends said about me for blaming myself for what happened. My besties kept telling me (until today they sometimes still bring it up) that real friends wouldn't do 'that' to me, 'they' don't worth my tears, and that i should stop caring for 'them'. Well i doubt i'd totally stop that. Coz after all i still treat them as my friends.

Anyways, it took me some time to actually get over what has happened. And i did. I got over it. But frankly if you were to ask me whether i totally stopped thinking about him, i'd say no. Because to me i think it is kinda impossible to completely forget a person that has made a huge impact to my life and that i truly love. All i can say is that i'm happy now and i will always pray that they will last happily forever. Because seeing him happy is the only thing i want. So what's so significant about this incident? Well i am back to who i have always been. Except in 2009. People around me are glad to see the cheerful me again. I myself too feel that i'm a happier person. I guess everything happens for a reason. And this incident has taught me alot. I learnt it the hard way as it cost me someone dearly. But like i always say - suck it up! Life goes on. So i picked up all the broken pieces and moved on. I learnt that even though people give up on me, I will never ever give up on myself! Because giving up means you are going to lose something. So i'm still very much proud of myself. I guess i grew the fuck up! Haha. *what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger*

Okay, sad things aside. I did something really SIGNIFICANT in June! I climbed Mount Kota Kinabalu - the highest mountain in South East Asia! Did you see that??!! The highest people the highest!! Ok i'm making it sounds like a really big deal here now. But it is the big deal to ME! *clap clap* =P  I made it all the way to the peak! Beat that! Grandma & mommy said i was outta my mind. Daddy is extremely proud of his baby girl! Teehee...=)  It was an awesome experience. It reminded me of how much i love the outdoors the adventures. Adrenaline junkie dad calls me. Daddy wants to do it too after i told him how awesome it was. Now i know where i got the gene from. ^.^  And i'm telling you it is a different world when you're standing at the top over-looking whats beneath you. It's not the ego you see. It's the achievement! You have to feel it yourself. It was hell of an experience. It was worth all the hardships and obstables. Heaven!

Other than Mount KK, another significant thing that i've done was that i learned how to say No. I've been warned many many times by family & close friends that i've got to say no at some point of time. I can't be doing everything for others. Neither colleagues nor friends. So yah, i've learnt to say no. But it seems like i'm breaking the rules again haha. But no worries, i will say no when i really can't be of any help.

Hmmm...what else? That i found myself really REALLY love kids? Haha. Well most people do i believe. Anyways, job wise.... I'm going back to work again on Monday after the 2-month holidays. Gears up! I guess i really like teaching. I have the passion for it which nobody including myself ever understand why this happened. Because i've always been the naughty and lazy one back in school. Who will ever believe that i'm a teacher now. Actually i kinda pity my students now haha! Coz almost everything they attempt to do, i'd know before hand. Why? Coz i'm kinda like "Ms Been-There-Done-That". So i know. Haha! All in all, i love my job! Things with colleagues are good too. Speaking of job, 2011 is gonna an EXTREMELY busy year! Syllabus changed, system changed, and pressure on! Well i hope my students' result will improve under my guidance and 'special treatment' haha. *fingers crossed & praying hard* 

Alright, have i done anything new this year except mount kk? Hmm...oh hell yeah! There are a few. Paintball in the muddy jungle. Driving range. Went into the casino & actually placed bets. Rock climbing. Yah thats about it i guess. These all gave me really good experiences and exposures. I'll definitely do it again. Except for the casino la. Lol.

Last but not least, I have made it a point to go away / travel alone for a few days every December. The purpose is for myself to rest n relax and to get ready for the coming new years. It's like a meditation break. Lol. This year i went to PD. Stayed at a pretty decent hotel - Avillion Admiral Cove. It was all good. I got to just lay down and think about what has happened this year, and think about what am i going to achieve next year. And i got all the rest i wanted. Bliss!

Now i've warned you from the very beginning that this is a LONG post! See the "WARNING" sign on my title?!! Haha. Alright, i'll leave my new year resolution for the next post. Till then everyone. See you next year! Tomorrow maybe haha.

~ HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 ~